Kaleidoscope00eyes

moving.

kaleidoscope00eyes — Sat, 01 Jan 2011 00:46:39 +0000

i’m on tumblr now. a few of my friends suggested i join, so i’m giving it a shot :)

current jams: van morrison — moondance

i’ll give so much more than i get

kaleidoscope00eyes — Wed, 15 Dec 2010 04:17:01 +0000

everybody’s callin’ it quits!

zac efron & vanessa hudgens. michael c. hall & jennifer carpenter. ryan reynolds & scarlett johansson. good lord, who’s next?!

current tunes: Haven’t Met You Yet — Michael Buble

sunshine go away today

kaleidoscope00eyes — Sun, 12 Dec 2010 23:28:42 +0000

Just got done shoveling a large portion of our driveway and sidewalk with Jess. Steph came out to help for about 10 minutes, and then went inside. Awesome.

Jess & I barely use our cars, so we decided we would only shovel out enough space for us to get out. If everyone else is gonna be lame, so are we. That snow was heavy. So yeah, I didn’t want to do anymore than I had to. So sue me!

Ugh. I love snow & winter. But I hate it when it forces me to cancel plans and shovel a whole bunch. Oh well…semester’s over Thursday at 6pm :)

current tunes: walking the dog — fun.

I Put A Spell On You

kaleidoscope00eyes — Fri, 10 Dec 2010 07:00:35 +0000

She & Him

Just watched tonight’s Conan and they performed. It was heavenly, as always.

Oh baby.

kaleidoscope00eyes — Fri, 10 Dec 2010 06:56:14 +0000

Congratulations to my babygirl on her little one :) So exciting!

She is going to be the most loved, spoiled little pea on the planet :)

current tunes: January Wedding — The Avett Brothers

At Least We Live Tonight

kaleidoscope00eyes — Thu, 09 Dec 2010 06:05:52 +0000

Jamie Tworkowski spoke on campus tonight. For those of you that don’t recognize this name, let me share some information. Jamie is the founder of an organization called To Write Love On Her Arms. It has grown quickly since its inception in March of 2006. It is an organization that helps others deal with personal demons such as depression, addiction, and suicide. I have been interested in and kept tabs on TWLOHA since close to the very beginning. In high school I had some very close friends that were dealing with personal demons, and at that point, TWLOHA did not yet exist. Shortly after I graduated in June of 2006, we collectively discovered this organization and realized the opportunities it presented. It offers hope, help, community, and love. TWLOHA is one of the best things that has ever been created in my opinion, and I am thankful each and every day for such a positive organization and kind and helpful people to go along with it. Throughout the course of the night, I relived some tough conversations, as well as some happy ones. “Our hearts are heavy and light.” But the experience was one that I am proud to have been able to have.

Something else to know is that TWLOHA is not a religious organization by any means. It is filled with a dominant Christian culture, but that’s not to say that it is Christian in nature. That being said, I know that many people still associate it with their religions, which I think is great. Here is the main reason I am writing this entry tonight: how I view TWLOHA in conjunction with my religion (or lack there of?). For a very long time I have been on the more cynical end of the spectrum when it comes to my religion. My family is Catholic, but I do not call myself Catholic. If anything, I am a non-denominational Christian, but I’m not sure I’m that either. I have long held the belief that organized religion is a crock. Plain and simple. However, some friends in high school, and now college, have had such strong faiths in their religions that it makes me question my belief system. Don’t misunderstand me please; I do believe. I believe in a higher power. I really do think there is something or someone watching over all of us here on Earth. I just don’t know what that higher power is, or just HOW powerful it is.

A question I hear and have thought all-too-often is, “If there is a God, why did so-and-so have to die so young?” or something to that effect. Many people, including myself, say that everything happens for a reason, but sometimes it’s really hard to see what that reason is. What was the reason for my mom having a brain aneurysm? — So that she can work fewer hours, get less pay, and have daily headaches? That doesn’t make much sense to me. Why did my aunt get a brain tumor and pass on at the age of 46? So that her family can miss her every day and so that she got the short end of the stick when it comes to having lifelong experiences? Again, that doesn’t make much sense to me. Yet all these people have such strong, unwavering faith in their religions. Like I said, I’m cynical.

So, back to the point Kim. I have a handful of friends that are so very passionate about their faith, that I have recently started to question my own (again, or lack there of). I have been wanting to have an honest conversation with one or more of these friends about my thoughts, but I feel too ignorant to bring it up. Not that I have any reason to feel ignorant, they are just my opinions, and if I want to know more, that would be the perfect opportunity. I think the main reason I don’t ask them to talk with me is that I’m worried I will offend them. If I tell them my true thoughts, I’m afraid they will disagree so passionately and end the conversation, when I’m really just looking for their opinions.

I guess the purpose for this ridiculously long post shifted so many times throughout it that I can’t even tell you what the real point is anymore. It turned into a chance for me to rant and get all these thoughts that have been swimming through my brain out. I really hope that I’m still able to ponder all of these things because they keep me on my toes. And hopefully, I will get to have that honest conversation sometime soon.

Peace to all.

current tunes: Fortunate Son — Creedence Clearwater Revival

i’ll play the victim while you play the fool

kaleidoscope00eyes — Wed, 01 Dec 2010 18:13:32 +0000

December 1st…snow is falling and sticking. i love it! for the past 5 years or so there has been significant snowfall on December 1st…my birthday! i am most definitely a december baby, because boy oh boy do i love snow and winter!! i can’t wait to go sledding. i thoroughly enjoy bundling up and braving the cold to get to class. i want to make a snowman. i just love it!!!

no exciting plans for the day, other than lunch with dani. the celebrations will commence on friday after everyone’s out of class and work. i am very very excited :)

enjoy the snow, midwesterners!!!

current tunes: La Rivalita: The Audition

are you gonna live your life wondering, standing in the back, looking around?

kaleidoscope00eyes — Fri, 05 Nov 2010 01:56:06 +0000

Oh mylanta, I have been very absent from this little blog. School started great, and is continuing great. I’m in my my early childhood block right now, and loving every minute of it. I have 3 night classes that are absolutely wonderful. Then I have a placement twice a week for 3 hours each day. I couldn’t ask for a better classroom, cooperating teacher, or group of children. They brighten up my Mondays and Wednesdays and confirm that I am 100% in the right major. I am so thankful for these opportunities.

Homecoming was 2 weeks back, and it was a huge success. It was the best homecoming we’ve had in yeeeaaaars, which made me feel great. It was my first time being in charge of that event, so I was really nervous, but things turned out great! We had our homecoming wrap-up meeting today, and overall the committee feels the same way that I do.

I also applied to go to NACA again in the spring semester. This year it is in St. Louis, and I really hope I get the chance to go again. I loved the experience last year, and think I can get a lot more out of it this year. So keep your fingers crossed for me :)

What else…oh! We’re doing ‘Secret Snowflake’ on exec board and I am so pumped for it! In addition, we’re doing a mix cd exchange where all 10 of us create a mix cd. Then, at our last meeting of the semester we will listen to clips of the first 3 songs of every cd and guess who it came from. After we listen to all 10, we will reveal who they belonged to, and we will all get copies of each other’s cd’s. I am so excited!

These are the only updates I can think of for now…hopefully I will keep up with this a little bit better from now on :)

current jams: spoon–you got yr. cherry bomb

And I’m sure the view from heaven beats the hell out of mine here…

kaleidoscope00eyes — Sat, 31 Jul 2010 02:58:38 +0000

miss you grandpa duke…may you rest in peace. say hi to artie, kris, grandma bach, uncle jack, and carol for us all.

“keep the faith”

snails see the benefits, the beauty in every inch

kaleidoscope00eyes — Tue, 13 Jul 2010 03:01:54 +0000

i loved every moment of last weekend (well 2 weekends ago). relaxing friday night. seeing my nephew saturday & grilling out with the fam. summerfest with H & Jake. seeing counting crows do things differently. it was just wonderful!

i’m almost 1/2 way done with the summer job, which is exciting. i like it, but it is definitely trying at times. my co-workers are totally BA, so that tends to make up for the bad days with the kids. even though i’m at a site farther from my house, i don’t think i’d trade it because of who i work with. they are fantastic! (aside from miss emily always playing country music :/ haha)

finally, i’ll say this: no matter how many times i watch veronica mars, it never gets old. it was such a cleverly written show, and i’m still bummed that it got cancelled!

currently listening to: an episode of vmars :)